I have taken a very extended break from working out, and it shows!
I also have been doing a poor job of keeping up with this blog, since I started this post a month ago! Good news is, I successfully completed the October 25th challenge as far as workouts go. Didn’t miss a single one!
I am thrilled to be showing some progress, even without following the plan perfectly. I didn’t lose any weight, in fact, I gained a pound. This is why it’s so important to measure and use photographs to track progress!
If only it were that easy!
I must be the only person I know that is capable of eating “healthy” and staying heavy! I’m not saying I never stray from a clean diet, but I find myself binge eating things like Greek yogurt and oatmeal. The worst thing to me about emotional eating is that I am aware of it. I know when I’m eating something when I’m not really hungry, but when I’m stressed it’s like I just don’t care. In fact, it’s not “like” that, it is that, I do not care.
I used to spend a lot of time beating myself up afterwards, when I start caring again. Now I am spending a lot of energy on positive thinking and self-forgiveness. Being mean to myself is not going to undo those calories I ate, but it might make me feel crappier and be more likely to eat more later.
This is something I really struggle with and so far haven’t found a solution for. At least I’m being nicer to myself. I feel like that will benefit me in the end. I’m curious, what do you do to keep from binging if you are an emotional eater? Comment below.
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I quit my job this week. It wasn’t exactly planned, I definitely didn’t have anything lined up. Correction: I don’t have anything lined up. I would say that this is out of my character, but sometimes I have a difficult time figuring out what exactly is inside or outside of my character therefore I surprise myself sometimes. Does that happen to anyone else?
I remember a conversation I had with a friend over a drink about 13 years ago. I was in the beginnings of a long and toxic relationship at the time. I remember telling my friend, “Everything is good in my life except for this one piece.”
His response was, “Why wouldn’t you want all the areas of your life to be good?”
At the time I had no answer for him. I thought he was nuts, everything being good didn’t seem like a possibility. It wasn’t until very recently that I came to the conclusion that he was on to something. Continue reading
I’ll admit it. I have used a variation of every last one of the statements in this picture. I never even gave it much thought, and I probably will use most of them again. I consider myself pretty anti-politically correct. The only one of the above that I have ever felt like maybe I should try not to say is “I’m retarded” but it’s still a pretty frequent thought that runs through my mind.
I frequently refer to myself as crazy. Hell, my Etsy and personal Instagram have the word Loca in them. LaLocalLoca, specifically. To me, crazy is kind of endearing. Eccentric, the opposite of boring. I generally embrace my craziness. I really don’t think I’d give up my crazy, even if I could. Psycho, on the other hand, is an entirely different definition. Continue reading